Born in Orange, New Jersey, United States
Lives in Bethesda, Maryland, United States
Leaning Into One Another
Arts for the Aging
Michael and Mark were four years apart,
aged 8 and 12. In the ’70s
everybody had a pool it seemed
of one sort or another
and we joined each summer
the neighborhood pool in the middle
of our colonial subdivision.
I would sit and watch,
to look out for them
as all the mothers did
in the bright hard sunlight.
They liked to jump in the water.
I would get sunburned all the time
with my fair skin I tried to cover up.
I wanted to lean into something,
the memory I can't bring up,
like pages in a forgotten book:
how I protected them.
The older was a redhead like me.
He’d later turn to drugs.
The younger was blond,
studious, more serious, easier
to love. As an adult,
he took his own life.
But there was a time
I could still watch them,
I could protect them completely.
We were leaning into one another.
We were leaning into our lives.